Despite my recent issues with my immediate environment, having read the 道德經, I’m still trying to find some inner-peace.
One of the things at contention, is simply: “Who Am I?” It’s such a simple question, but how can you answer succinctly? Some people immediately identify themselves by their race, others define themselves by what they are NOT. What’s common though, is that most people define themselves by what they do. This gets confusing for me, because what I was occupationally, I am no longer.
“In this line of work, the best thing is that you don’t have to think. Whoever needs to die, the time and place has already been determined by someone else. I’m a lazy person. I like someone else to lay things out for me. Lately, things have changed. I want to change this habit. I don’t know if this is right or wrong. But at least the person who has to make this decision is me.”
Well, when you switch careers, then naturally, you have a new identity. However, when you haven’t found that new career yet, what are you? Even if you have a job, it’s not a career. So how do you identify yourself?
Been thinking about this lately, and then I landed on Ken Sheppardson’s landing page. It’s pretty simple. There’s definitely a man who has his career straight. He’s a programmer. That’s that. Doesn’t help me in my career change, BUT it gives me an idea on how to reduce what elements make me the person I am.
I really don’t have any hard skills like he does. So what can I do? Or rather, what am I willing to do for hours on end, and not think anything of. I mean, the best I can say is I’m a consumer, but then, I can’t say that completely, because I’m not a consumer of material items. On this website, I’ve talked about food, music, movies, languages. So I’m a “consumer of culture”. How would I sum up my landing page then? For that matter, how can I sum up my career skills? Hm…